To whoever needs to hear this:
I validate your feelings.
Yes, it’s real.
Yes, it’s painful.
I know it’s a lot for some people to take in and understand, but I do.
I may not walk the same exact path as you do, but I won’t say I had it worse because really, who are we to compare?
We have different struggles and it sucks big time. Not gonna lie.
But be positive that someday, you will look back on your journey and you will catch yourself smiling because you made it to the other side–happier, healthy and safe.
I’m just here, I won’t judge you. I know that’s the last thing you will need.
And maybe, I needed to hear this as well.
It’s been a long time since I had an update about my work + school. Aside from updating you (if someone comes across this post), it’s also a documentation as to where I am at this point in time. So, here it goes! ♡
We’re approaching the end of the school year. One more unit for the last term and we officially say goodbye to school year 2018-2019!
I’ll have my training over the summer. That will be interesting and I’m looking forward to it!
A lot has been happening these past few weeks.
First off, I just officially ended my 2-week practice teaching at Mandaue City Central SpEd School – OT/PT Center yesterday. It was a bittersweet experience I would never ever forget. I documented everything from Day 1 up until our last day. I’ll probably post a video about it soon.
PS. It was just a short practice teaching experience because we still have to attend a lot of seminars and immersions which will happen this month.
Second, I’ll hopefully graduate this July 2019 with a Diploma in Special Education. Currently, I’m holding a Degree in Communication and a Certificate in Professional Education.
Initially, I was planning to proceed and get my Master’s Degree in Special Education.. Not until two weeks ago. Now, I’m planning to skip it first and have a Diploma in Early Childhood Education instead.
It’s an ambitious move, I know–sacrificing my weekend-offs and going back to school all over again–but I don’t want to regret things just because I was lazy and just because some people think it’s ridiculous.
It’s tiring, yes, but it’s all going to be worth it. ♡
“When you love someone,
you want what’s best for them,
and sometimes what’s best for them..
– J.M. Darhower
You see it happening right in front of your eyes.
You hear it being said to you over and over again.
You feel your heart break into million pieces while your throat tightens into an impossible knot.
You can even taste your own tears running down your face now.
Yet you still listen to that tiny crack of voice inside your head that ever so softly whispers,
“It’s not true–it can’t be true.. Right?”
I looked at myself in the mirror today and suddenly had the urge to get a pair of scissors and just chop off my hair right then and there.
And so I did.
Looking at myself after my impulsive decision, I began to panic.
It’s way too short.
I looked around the floor. Hair everywhere–a lot of them.
I focused my gaze on the mirror again.
I looked more younger now. I feel lighter.
Along with my hair are the feelings I’m bottling up inside me.
I’m letting them go now.
I’ve let them go.
Some–or maybe all–of you may not know, but I’m going to be 25 this year.
Gosh. I feel old.
I’m hearing my bones literally cracking just by typing that.
Kidding aside, I’m definitely feeling this quarter life crisis now and I don’t know what to feel about it.
“Am I on the right path?”
“Am I doing enough?”
“Do I need to change career all over again?”
Just some of the questions that bother me everyday that’s obviously left unanswered.